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the last beautiful word in my mind...
i really don't know how to start...
but for sure it start from the first time I went to this semester..,
it began nicely..,
a few week later a got an emergency call from my mother..,
she told me that my cousin already pass away..,
she only 5 years..
at that time I don't know why and I don't want to ask...
it will make me really sad..
she is the first person who called me "mom"
even i'm not someone that give her birth...
a week passed really fast...
October 12, we already got our sem break..,
really excited to see my home...
I planned to take a bus at oct 12, because that friday I have a class till 5pm..,
but.., again my mother message me..
"why don't you take a bus this evening.., aunt really sick"
without thinking anything, I have escape that evening class..,
we go to my mother village that saturday..,
the first time I saw my aunt, my tears fall without words..,
I really don't want my aunt see my tears and I make myself strong...
go beside her and talk...
"who are you..?" she ask me...
again i felt want to cry.., but I have to be strong to make she strong...
"angah" I answer softly...
the moment she heard my name she start to cry...
I told to her.., I came here to take care of you...
she didn't answer me...
I start to take a really good care of her at that moment and I really hope that she will get well..,
even the doctor said that really small percentage for her to get really well..,
we don't care what the doctor want to said..,
he can told us anything that he want to but my duties is to told my aunt to be strong..,
only strength can make she still survive...
on monday's morning at 6.30 am.., she like to spoke up but her voice is too soft and anyone can't heard what she want to speak..,
my mom try to wake me up because she want to gave her breakfast..,
my aunt only want me to feed her for that last 3 days...
but.., unfortunatly, she doesn't want...
my cousin and I start to pray and read yassin for her to make her destiny easier...
Zohor is coming up and we sholat by rotation..,
at 12.55pm.., she confirmed passed away............................................................
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Al-Fatihah...
